Closer

I think I'm a lot closer to knowing myself more than ever before. I'm close enough at least. There will always be parts of me that wavers and that is lost, but as far as stability and comfort in who I am, I'm there. Now the discomfort comes more with how my life has and is playing out and how I am going to choose to play it out, but there is not necessarily uncertainty with myself. There’s a quote that I have always been quite fond of from Emerson’s Self-Reliance:

“There is a time in every man's education when he arrives at the conviction that envy is ignorance; that imitation is suicide; that he must take himself for better for worse as his portion; … [ ] … Trust thyself: every heart vibrates to that iron string.”

State of Mind

I am still a series of highs and lows,
but I think I have finally found a middle ground.
Accepting and expecting the least,
to help calm my nerves down.

I have found comfort in my own skin,
reaccepting what is within.
But future plans are still up in the air,
giving me no time to prepare,

For what is to come.